Just around the semester’s end


Changing changing, my life is all about change lately.

And it’s weird.

And I like it.

And it’s unsettling.

And I hate it.

Next year I will be commuting from Shelton for my final year of college.

I only have one year of undergrad left–and then it is on to the rest of my life.

I am changing as a person. Growing stronger, growing weaker, discarding that which is unhealthy.

I am growing as a musician, and although my journey seems to be strewn with obstructions (rocks in the road of life) I am slowly and meticulously working my way through them. Painfully. But meticulously.

I am changing and being challenged in my faith. I have not lost it by any means, but I am definitely separating the trappings of Evangelical Christianity from having a faith and belief in God.

I am coming to terms with the fact that I’ve got issues.

I am coming to terms with the fact that it is ok that I have issues, and that everybody else has them too!

My whole life I have tried to hide my flaws, put on my “performance face” and act as if everything is a-ok.

It is very frightening for me to drop that facade and acknowledge that things are pretty messed up but it is something that I need to do.

How can things change if I refuse to admit that something is wrong?

Goals:

1–Learn how to clear out my sinuses by tipping my head forward and shooting salt water through my nose

2–Design a dress and make it

3–Stop agreeing to do things because I ought to, but do them because I want to. This isn’t me being selfish, this is me trying to keep myself mentally and physically healthy.

Sincerely.

Emilie

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2 thoughts on “Just around the semester’s end

  1. Yay for taking an active role in becoming even more fantastic – even when it hurts and is super confusing. You rock Emilie.

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